It does not matter how slow you go so long as you do not stop.

-Wisdom of Confucius

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Monday, 25 November 2013

Broken Arm

Monday August 5th, 2013 was Civic Day; everything seemed perfect. The sun was bright and warm and the blue sky held no trace of clouds. Squirrels and birds made amends and played. The lively breeze nudged the trees into whispering laughter. The flowers smiled and the grass was green.

On that beautiful morning, we decided to go to Sunnybrook Park. My friends and I frolicked around, running in the grass and climbed a tree. I climbed higher and higher, gaining more confidence. Suddenly, my foot slipped and I came crashing down. A small but sturdy twig caught me, flipping me over. I landed with my arms outstretched and the wind knock out of my lungs.

Everyone asked in unison, “Are you okay?” Out of breath and slightly embarrassed, I told them in a light tone that I was fine. I got up to brush the dirt off my pants, wondering how I would explain the dirt stain on my pants. When I looked down, it felt like I fell off the tree again. My wrist was crooked. My face instantly paled and I could only say 3 words: Oh. My. God. I was unable to take my eyes off my alien wrist. This was obviously a nightmare; it wasn't real.

5 minutes after we called 911, we heard the high pitch siren of the ambulance. The paramedics gently put my arm in a makeshift cast letting some of the younger children hold the equipment. He guided me to the ambulance where 2 other paramedics waited. We were seated in the ambulance but I kept fidgeting and my mom’s face was ghostly pale. The paramedic, upon seeing us instantly said it was nothing.

“I broke my arm 3 times. Heck, I even broke my skull! I’m still here,” he joked.

After filling many forms and applications, we sat in the waiting room of the hospital. At first, we kept little conversation, but after 5 minutes, we were silent. My arm began to throb, which didn't happen before. At first, it only lasted for a second or so and then stopped. But it soon came back, lasting longer and longer. I began to gasp as the throbbing became a stab and I cried in my mom’s shoulder, biting my tongue to try to keep my mind off my arm. Again and again I told my mom that my arm hurt and she would bite her lips each time, wanting to do something. After the millionth time, my mom asked a nurse for painkillers.

To keep my mind off my arm, I forced myself to think about something else. Suddenly, my foggy mind cleared and I sat up straight. I would miss the Backstreet Boys concert. Before summer vacation, my family and I heard that the Backstreet Boys would be touring in Toronto. We scoured the Internet for tickets and when we finally found a site, we managed to snag the last few tickets. Everyday, we ticked off the boxes of our calendars, impatiently waiting for the day to arrive. Timidly, I asked my mom if I could still go.

“We'll see”, she replied and I knew it was impossible now.

Slumping quietly in my chair, I suddenly realized that I wouldn't be going to China either. To save money, my mom bought our tickets earlier this year and they were non-refundable. She already packed our bags a few weeks earlier and I was looking forward to a trip to the Terra Cotta warriors which I missed on my last visit.

Sensing my dark mood, we decided to try to go to Backstreet Boys concert. There were obviously going to be big crowds at the concert so we devised a system where my family members would stand around me to prevent anyone from accidentally bumping my arm. I would wear only one sling so everyone would get the message that my arm was broken without me losing my balance.

As if fate didn't want me to go, the forecast was rain. My cast could not touch water so we had to find a rain jacket. There couldn't be any sleeves as my arm could not fit and it had to be well insulated.

The day was quickly upon us so we scrambled into stores, scouring shelves and exploring aisles for the perfect raincoat. The days disappeared, one by one yet no stores had the perfect jacket. As the days went by, I became more frantic. It seemed that I wouldn't go after all.

The day before the concert, I was scrunched up on the couch, all hope gone and tears prickled my eyes. The Backstreet Boys concert was going to be my first live concert! Now because of my arm, my family and I couldn't go.

I heard the door closing, knowing what my dad would say. He walked up to me, holding something behind his back. He smiled and produced a pink bicycle raincoat. I slipped it over my head; it covered me from neck to toe and my arm was safely under the thick waterproof fabric. There were no sleeves. It seemed as if God sent it himself. I clutched the jacket, almost kissing it.

After the exciting, awesome concert, another wall slammed in front of us. How would I go to China? I only had my cast on for one week and we all knew from the Internet that I needed at least 2 weeks before the doctors gave me a fiberglass cast and I might be able to travel. My luck couldn't be repeated the second time so I sulked in the corner. Still, my parents were able to read me like an open book and knew what I was feeling. My dad proposed that he and I would go 2 weeks after my sister and mother if possible. If my arm still couldn't take it after 3 weeks, he and I would go on winter vacation. Still, my dad was away for most of the day and since my other arm was also hurt, without my sister or mother, how was I going to eat, bathe, dress or use the washroom? To make matters worse, we were renovating our staircase and there was no way that I was able to use it without assistance.

A week after the incident, when we went to the hospital for a checkup, I was taken by surprise when the nurse began to cut my cast before I saw the doctor. The nurse pawned our comments of how I only had my plaster cast for 1 week, saying that it was fine. Afraid to hope, I timidly asked the doctor if I could go to China. I held my breath waiting for his response. He stopped writing. Was he biting his lips and shaking his head? He seemed to be on the verge of giving me bad news and my heart sank. He looked up from his sheet, his eyes seemed furrowed and I could already hear his answer: I’m sorry, but no. Then he smiled.

“Of course you can,” he said and I did a silent whoop, “I’ll just put you in a fiberglass cast and you’ll be ready to go.”

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Snip, snip. After we came back from China, a month later, the cast finally came off. I took one last look at my cast, its familiar color and texture, filled with names and get well notes with happy faces and hearts from all my friends. I tentatively touched my right arm which tingled with the foreign touch. My arm prevented me from writing to playing with a dog; it was something that is least on my mind at night when I crawl under the covers yet I depend on it the most.

Sunday, 10 November 2013

Le Petit Prince
Un Rapport du Livre

Sommaire

Un garçon était inspiré par un livre et décidait de dessiner un serpent qui mange un éléphant. Quand il donnait aux les adultes ou les « grands personnes », toute le monde disaient que c’était un chapeau. Découragé par son échec, il laissait ses dessine et apprenait comment piloter un avion.

Des années ont passé et le garçon a grandi. Un jour, il volait a travers le désert Sahara quand son avion a mal fonctionné et il a attiré. Soudain, il a aperçut un étrange petit garçon qu’il a nommé le petit prince. Le petit prince et l’homme sont devenus les amis et le petit prince a raconté son histoire.

Le petit prince vivait sur l’astroïde B 612. Sur son astroïde, il y a des baobabs qui vont occuper la planète si tu ne creuses pas. Le petit prince a vu une plante qui ressemble à un baobab alors il le laisse. La plante était une magnifique rose qui était très vain. Le petit prince l’aimait beaucoup et la rose prend l’avantage de l’amour du petit prince et donnait beaucoup des ordres alors le petit prince a décidé de partir mais pas avant le rose a avoué son amour pour lui.

Le petit prince a visité des autres astroïdes habité par les grandes personnes comme un roi, un vaniteux, un buveur, un homme d'affaires, un allumeur de réverbères et un géographe. Ces personnes donne une impression que les grandes personnes sont très étranges et manque d’imagination. Finalement, le petit prince a arrivé au Terre et il voir un aiguilleur du chemin du fer qui lui disait que toutes les adultes vont par ici et par la mais ils ne savent pas ce qu’ils cherchent. Seule des enfants regardent dehors leurs fenêtres et savait ce qu’ils cherchent.

Le petit prince a marché à un jardin et il était triste de voir des millions des roses. Il avait pensait que sa rose est la seule de l’espèce et a pensé qu’elle était spéciale. Après, il a rencontré un renard qui a demandé d’être apprivoisé. Le renard a donné beaucoup des sagesses au le petit prince. Il a dit que l’amour donne la signifiance aux personnes et chose. A cause du amour du petit prince, le champ de blé avait de la signifiance a le renard car c’était la même couleur de ses cheveux. Le petit prince a réalisé que son rose est spécial car il l’aime.

Le petit prince finissait son histoire et l’homme n’avais plus du l’eau. Heureusement, ils sont trouvé un petit puits. Le petit prince a resté au le puits et a dit que l’homme doit retourner pour réparer son avion et de retourner le lendemain. Le prochain jour, l’homme trouve le petit prince avec un serpent qui le petit prince avait rencontré avant. Le serpent a mordu le petit prince qui mourait. Il disait que c’est le plus rapide façon de retourner à son astroïde.

Thème

Il y a beaucoup des thèmes dans cette livre mais le plus important ce que les choses importantes et sérieuses ce n’est pas toujours mathématiques ou la science. Les grandes personnes pensait trop sur la sujet du l’argent et l’efficace comme l’homme d’affaires, qui calcul les étoiles toute la journée et a placé les étoiles dans la Bank et penser c’est a lui. Aujourd’hui, beaucoup des personnes juste veulent l’argent et pensent que c’est la plus importante chose dans la monde et ils ne prennent pas le temps de fait des amis et regard des petites choses dans la vie qui te fait content. Aussi, nous essayons de faire les choses plus efficaces mais pas pour les choses importantes. Dans un parti, le petit prince rencontre un Merchant qui vendre les pilules pour qu'un personne sauver le temps pour boire du l'eau. Nous manque d’imagination. Nous devons regard les choses avec nos cœurs et comme le renard a dit, l’œil est nul.

Qui

Les protagonistes dans centre livre sont le petit prince et le narrateur. Il y a aussi le renard, la rose, le serpent, le roi, le vaniteux, le buveur, l’homme d'affaires, l’allumeur de réverbères, le géographe et l'aiguilleur d’un chemin du fer.



Le lieu de cette livre est dans le désert Sahara, l'astroïde B 612, l'astroïde 325, 326, 327, 328, 329, 330 (la maison du le roi, le vaniteux, le buveur, le homme d'affaires, le allumeur de réverbères, le géographe), et la Terre.

Quand

Il n'y a pas d'une spécifique période du temps dans cette livre mais c’arrive il y a 6 ans.

Quoi

Quand le narrateur était petit, il fait un dessine que toutes les grandes personnes mal interprète et personne ne savais pas qu'est que c'est. Le narrateur, maintenant un adulte, se trouve dans un désert et trouve un petit garçon qu'il a nommé le petit prince. Ils sont devenu les amies et le petit prince à raconté son histoire et le narrateur est content d'avoir un amie avec d'imagination.

Comment

Le petit prince réaliser que sa rose est spéciale après le renard a dit que l'amour donne le signifiance. Il a aussi réalisé que sa rose lui aime aussi derrière ses ordres et ses étranges besoins.

Pourquoi

Le narrateur était découragé par ses designs et pensée que les grandes personnes manque d’imagination. Il n’avait pas des amies qui vraiment comprendre ce qu’il sent et il fait un modifier son personnalité pour que les autres grandes personnes pense qu'il est normal et raisonnable.

Saturday, 9 November 2013

Canada's Wonderland

When the anticipated summer vacation became boring, my mom came home one day with a surprise. I was lounging on the couch doing nothing when 3 tickets were shoved in my face.

"Canada's Wonderland tickets were on sale today! I got you enough tickets to go twice with your sister and Arissa!" my mom said excitedly.

Since sitting on the couch wasn't my idea of 'fun', I didn’t want to miss my chance. Dialing Arissa's number as quickly as I could, a map of rides was already forming in my mind. The last time I went to Canada's Wonderland was years ago, and I didn't qualify for many of the rides. This year, all the rides were available for me.

"Hello?" Arissa’s voice said.

"Hi Arissa, it’s me Shirley. Want to go to Canada's Wonderland with my sister and I? My mom already bought us tickets, so we can go whenever we want." I told her.

"Really? I was thinking about going there too! Is it okay if one of my other friends come as well?"

"Sure! When we get there, we should…"

This went on for a while.


The beautiful day finally came. The sun kissed the flowers and the birds sang happily. Arissa's mom was taking my sister, Arissa, and I to Canada's Wonderland, where we would meet Arissa's friend, Yi Fong.

When we entered the gates of Canada's Wonderland, a train on the Leviathan thundered above our heads, followed by screaming. I glanced nervously at Arissa.

We quickly spotted a rocking boat and decided to go on it. While we were in line, we were chatting normally. This would be a piece of cake.

When it was our turn, we got on without a glance back. We were rocked up and down a few times before slowing down to a stop.

Our next ride was more of a roller coaster, called the Wild Beast. It zoomed forward and around a curve before climbing up a slope where we were suspended for a moment. I screamed because everyone else did.

Afterwards, wishing for more thrills, we came across Thunder Run. Yi Fong glanced at the speed of the trains and refused to go on. After a bit of convincing, she hesitantly agreed to go on with us. Our train sped forward into a dark cave with flashing lights all around us. We all hollered loudly, feeling the wind against our faces.


"Let’s go on the Bat!" Arissa said pointing to an image on the map. When we were actually standing in front of the Bat, my heart lurched. My eyes followed the red tracks leading to two loops. I had never been on loops, and this didn't seem like one for amateurs and my head barely passed the qualifying line.

"Let’s actually skip this one…" Yi Fong said nervously after we watched a train race past us with a lot of screaming. We moved on.


Our next ride was going to be Dragon Fire. There was a corkscrew and loops with rushing speed. Screaming filled the air.

"Uh…" my sister said with doubt. No one said anything, but we all didn't want to go on.


As we were making our way towards another ride, Arissa stopped.

"Wait! We haven't been on any of the bigger rides! We’ll have to go on one of them!" she exclaimed so we all agreed to backtrack to the Bat.

Arissa and I played hand games and tried to forget our situation. We suddenly found ourselves in the seats, being strapped tightly. I was sitting next to Arissa and my older sister was behind us. Screaming and screaming through horrifying loops, we finally stopped. My hand clenched the bars tightly, expecting to lurch forward again. 


Feeling somewhat heroic, we decided to go on the Behemoth. Before we could change our minds, we stepped into line. Up close, the ride seemed much higher than from afar. Since my sister and Arissa mutually agreed to go on, I didn't want to seem afraid.

We were almost there and half an hour already passed, but all the while, I was becoming more and more uneasy. I watched a train leave a station and listened to the screaming. Since the seating plan was 2 by 2, one of us was going to have to sit by ourselves.

I told Arissa and my sister that I was not going to go, fear overcoming my dignity. Arissa looked at my sister and a look of doubt crossed her face. But the train had arrived, and they still decided to go on. I went down the stairs and waited at the exit. I heard the train leave the station. I saw it climb up the slope. I felt my stomach clench when the train teetered at the peak. Soon enough, the ride was over and my sister and Arissa were running towards me.

"It was awesome!"

"The air was so fast!"

"If you scream, it’s better!"

"You need to ride it!"

They both took turns yelling excitedly at me. This time, comfortable with the knowledge of their experience, we lined up again. Arissa was going to sit with me, and my sister would sit behind us.

When it was our turn, I sat down, taking deep breaths. I reached over to the lap restraints and latched it down as tightly as I could. Groping for the body straps, I realized there was none. How is this piece of plastic and foam going to keep me in my seat? From waist up, I was exposed. The next thing I know, I’m moving forward and the people who work at the ride were wishing us a good journey.

Good journey?! More like the scare of our lives! I thought. Our train jerked up as it began to climb. The air was cold and I noticed how dark it was. 2 ladies behind my sister were talking calmly and laughing. Do they not realize that they are on the Behemoth?! I looked down, and we were pretty high up. I sucked in air preparing to scream as we drop. But we continued to climb, and climb. When will this thing drop? The heads in front of me disappeared. We had reached the peak. Our train was suspended for a moment and below us, city light glowed and car headlights flashed by. The faint sound of traffic was all we could hear. I got in as much of the cold air as I could before plunging into darkness. I was out of breathe that I couldn't even scream anymore when we began climbing again. Before I could recover, we were rushing back down. We slowed down after a while and returned into the booth, where everyone was applauding. A bit dazed, we then went on the Stunt Coaster, Flight Deck, and Skyrider, though nothing came close to the Behemoth.

When Arissa's dad came to pick us up, we were all exhausted. However, Arissa jumped into the car and began talking to her dad.

"Dad, dad! We went on the Behemoth! We went on the Behemoth!"

This lasted the whole ride home.

Saturday, 19 October 2013

Remembering: China • Chengdu • HuangTianBa
Part 3 HuangTianBa

HuangTianBa (黄田坝) 

Every time I visit HuangTianBa, a new shock shakes through my body. Buildings just grow out of the ground, taller with each visit. Shops and malls pop out of nowhere and people come and go. I went to China 3 years ago when they just begun the construction of 3 new buildings, right outside my grandparents’ condo. I returned last summer, and was taken aback to see 3 20-storey buildings.

Every time we visit China, my parents always visit the Chengdu Aircraft Industry Group (成都飞机工业集团) where they had formally worked. There were many tall trees crowned with large, healthy leaves and multicolored flowers surrounding the base of the tree. There were shrubs and bushes with tiny red berries and many benches on the campus. The tiles were all cemented on the ground and not one was higher than the other. There were many large murals, clearly depicting airplanes and men smiling. There are plane models but we never saw them; I am only told of them in stories or see them in pictures. We walked along the entire perimeter of the building and my parents recalled many stories from their time there. We circled the living quarters of the worker. Most of the condos were a bit run down and the road was deserted, giving an abandoned feel. The windows were blue, much to my astonishment. My mother pointed one of the buildings and told us that that was where my dad lived. We walked through the whole premises not skipping a single road.

Many years ago, before I started school, I lived with my grandparents and attended a daycare. Every day, we would watch a movie about fuzzy creatures that frightened me. One day, I brought a DVD about 101 things to know. At first, my classmates rejected as they all liked the fuzzy creatures which annoyed and frustrated me a lot. Still, I persisted as I couldn’t stand another day watching the show and the teacher finally decided that it was time for a change of taste.

When I came home from daycare, the first person I would meet was my 2-year-old sister, anticipating my return. Every day, she would bring my slippers over neatly and waited for me to put them on before asking me about my day. I would feel as if a queen, with a servant preening over me or a celebrity followed by a reporter and being asked about every single detail of my school day.

On our evening walk, I would sometimes see someone selling red, candy balls coated with sugar kabobs. The sugar coating would be hard and crunching, cracking when I bit into it while the soft inside was sour. The sweet and sour taste would blast through my mouth and fill my every thought in an instant. At that time, it was my favorite treat and whenever I saw it, I would plead and beg my grandparents to buy it for me.

At night, my grandmother would watch the news, but she never missed the Chinese National Anthem. My sister and I would anticipate all night for my grandmother to turn on the TV and when the familiar tune filled the room, my sister and I would leap off our chairs and start dancing. We pretended we were soldiers, marching on the spot and saluting with professional expressions. Our bodies were stiff and rigid, always erect while we sang along with my grandparents and parents who laughed in the background and cheered for us.

On my previous visit my grandmother Xiang ShiLin (向诗林), whose father (my great grandfather Xian DaiChang 向代昌) was the military Garrison commander of the Chengdu city (成都警备司令),   showed me pins of Chairman Mao. Back in the 1960s, it was mandatory that everyone wore one to show respect for Mao. The pins came in different shape and sizes. Some were rectangular, others were circular, and a few were hexagons. Chairman Mao’s head would be golden on a red background, a sacred color in China. Sometimes, there would be five yellow stars, symbolizing China or the front gate of the Forbidden City. Now, the pins became collectables. I couldn't decide my favorite pin. They were all glittering at me and trying to catch my attention. At first I put one pin on. Suddenly, there would be a bright and colorful pin that I didn't see before and I would add it on to my shirt. Then my eyes rested on one with a unique design and I would pick it up and pin it to my shirt. Before I knew it, I had 5 or 6 pins on my T-shirt.

There is a large colored picture in the middle of the living room right above a drawer depicting my sister and I in traditional Chinese dresses (mine was pink and my sisters was red) holding our hands in a gesture of respect and peace on a red background with fake firecrackers hanging on the right. The picture was taken in a photography store and was specifically bought and framed for my grandparents. Sometimes, my mom points out thing in the house that was there when she was a child and I see many pieces of furniture that sparks fading memories. At night, wrapped in a blanket that seemed somewhat familiar, I took a deep whiff. A flood of memories flashed through my mind, little clips of conversations, the sound of laughter, the joy when my dad visited me and all the places I went. Three generations of my family lived and thrived in China and although my home is on the other side of the earth, my roots have wriggled through miles of land and sea, reaching a place that is embossed in my heart and nourished me. Canada will always be my home but China is my third parent.


Remembering: China • Chengdu • HuangTianBa     Part 1 China
Remembering: China • Chengdu • HuangTianBa     Part 2 Chengdu
Remembering: China • Chengdu • HuangTianBa     Part 3 HuangTianBa

Torus: Chapter 4

"The Big Bang occurred around 13.8 billion years ago and it describes the early development of the universe. The universe was a pinprick of energy and that energy blasted outwards in 10-37 of a second. At that time, the universe was extremely hot and dense and it began expanding rapidly. Even today, the universe is still expanding, not showing any signs of slowing down. After many years, the universe cooled down enough to let some energy to be converted into subatomic particles."


"What are 'subatomic particles'?" Maxina interrupted.

"Particles that are smaller than atoms", George explained.

"What is smaller than an atom?"

"Neutrons, protons and electrons are all smaller than an atom."

Maxina nodded and George continued on.


"Even though many subatomic particles were formed, it took at least thousands of years before electrically neutral atoms were formed. The particles kept smashing into each other in high speed because of the high temperature creating new particles ."


"What does temperature have to do with the speed of things moving?" wondered Maxina.

Inora sighed, "The higher the temperature, the faster particles moved because they have more energy. Duh."

"Yes", George agreed, "The particles had a lot of energy and zoomed across the universe."

"Cool", Maxina replied as Inora rolled her eyes.


"The first elements formed were hydrogen and traces of helium and lithium. Giant clouds if those elements formed stars and many metals were formed inside those stars, exploding into space in a supernova. The metals and new elements coalesced to form planets, asteroids and comets."


"Who made up the Big Bang theory?" Maxina asked, yet again.

"Georges Lemaître first proposed the idea in 1927", responded George.

Inora looked up."I thought Edwin Hubble thought of the Big Bang".

"Wrong," George explained, "Edwin Hubble only expanded on the idea".

Inora pretended not to notice her sister smirking at her.


"Georges Lemaître was a Belgian cosmologist and Catholic priest. However, many astronomers at the time were uncomfortable that the universe is expanding. The idea that the universe started in a bang seemed absurd. In 1927, Lemaître published in Belgium an unnoticed paper that provided a solution to the equations of General Relativity for an expanding universe. By 1930, other cosmologists had concluded that the static models of the universe the cosmologists had worked on for many years were not correct. Furthermore, Edwin Hubble discovered that the distance to far away galaxies were generally proportioned to red shift. With Hubble’s observations, Lemaître paper convinced the majority of astronomers that the universe was indeed expanding."


"Um ..." Olivia asked nervously. "What is red shift?"

"Red shift happens when light and electromagnet radiation from an object moving away from the observer is increased in wavelength so it looks more red," described George, "Like when a high speed train rushes towards you, the pitch of the sound becomes higher."


"A year later, Lemaître explored the logical consequences of an expanding universe. If the universe is expanding, it would have been smaller in the past. Appealing to the new theory of matter, Lemaître proposed that the universe was initially a single particle which he called the "primitive atom" which exploded and expanded. This, my girls, was the birth of the Big Bang theory."


"So what was before the Big Bang?" Olivia questioned.

"There was nothing, just a blank space", said Olivia, exasperated.

"Actually, there was no 'before' and no 'blank space'", George explained.

 Inora and Olivia gave their father a confused look.

"Time was created when the Big Bang happened. 'Before' is a statement about time so there can be no 'before' the Big Bang", George said.

Inora and Olivia still looked confused.

"If I asked you how your brother looks like, what would you say?" George asked.

"Well, we can't answer because we have no brother," Inora answered.

"Exactly!" George exclaimed. "There was no time before the Big Bang so I can't answer what is before the Big Bang. The concept of 'before' simply didn't exist."

"Okay ... ", Olivia said, still confused.



Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5

My Grandma

When I think of my grandma, I only receive a few memories. The only way I communicate with her is usually through the telephone with my dad. But she can’t remember him. Nor me. A few years ago, she could still remember a couple of events that happened during her childhood. Now, she can't even tell who she was, what she did, etc. It’s not possible to chat with her like a typical grandma. To make her happy, we sing to her. She can still remember a few songs and cheers up when she hears them. She’s my grandma.

She wasn’t always like that. When she was young, she was a scientist. My grandpa, Wang Dao Kui (王道奎) and my grandma, Li Ben En (李本恩) both worked at Nuclear Power Institute of China (中国核动力研究设计院) She and my grandpa were one of the head researchers and their high-tech invention was granted an international patent in March 1995. This patent is now governed by State Intellectual Property Office of P.R.China. But after my grandpa passed away, her memory slowly began to deteriorate.

When my family visits China, I scarcely visit her home. She lives in a obsolete condo with tarnished furniture, situated nearby the heart of the city. Most of her furniture was hand-crafted by my grandpa himself. On her aged walls, hung pictures of my sister and I, the ones that my dad mails to her time and time. When I do visit her, she stares at me as if I were an intruder, making myself at home. Once, we went to a mall with my grandma and as we were waiting in line, I leaned on the shopping cart. I realized that I was being watched. I turned around to find my grandma glaring at me, with ice in her eyes.

“Don’t touch,” she muttered coldly. “I’ll beat you up!”

The look in her eyes, of mock and threat, dared me to object and the calm, but demanding, tone made me slowly back away, inching closer to my mom.

Back at her condo, I dropped down on the seat closest to me, exhausted. My grandma walked in then lingered hesitantly around me. Then, she sat down on the stool, in front of my seat. A few seconds later, she turned around and suddenly smacked my knee. Feeling uncomfortable, I changed spots, getting the message that I was not wanted in that area. The next thing I see, is my grandma sitting on my old seat, with a flash of triumph in her eyes.

Since she can’t remember anything, my dad, uncles or caretaker has to assist her with using the washroom. When someone does, she has no clue of what’s going on and thinks that they are trying to hurt her. She’ll thrash, hit, and yell nasty comments at them. It takes plenty of coaxing, singing, and sweet talking to get her to sit on the toilet. While she is, she’d be grumbling about thieves and how they all are thieves. When she is done, she wouldn’t get up. However they try (by singing, talking with her, acting happy, etc), she would refuse to stand up. It would take a couple of minutes to finally win her over and continue on with the day.

She also can’t eat by herself. Someone has to feed her to prevent her from doing anything rash. Though if I were to feed her, she wouldn’t even take one bite. She would only eat from people that she is familiar or comfortable with, people like my dad. Some days, when she is in a bad mood, she’d refuse to eat anything at all. In those days, someone ought to comfort her and make her feel happier.

When I visited her, a week before we left, my dad’s younger brother (my uncle) took us to as restaurant with my grandma. My mom ended up sitting next to her. My grandma studied my mom’s face with a vacuous expression. Without further ado, she reached over and grabbed my mom's plate. My mom, who didn’t want to make my grandma mad, happily handed over her bowl and utensils as well. When the food arrived, my mom couldn’t eat, for my grandma was still keeping everything hostage, so my dad offered to switch seats with my mom. After my grandma looked at my dad up and down skeptically, to my surprise, she handed him the plates! A few minutes later, while everyone was eating, she picked up a piece of tofu and put it in my dad’s plate. Every once in a while, she would do the same, giving him something that she thinks tastes good.

A few days later, my dad told me a story: the morning before we returned to Canada, my dad visited my grandma again to see her before we leave. During breakfast, her caretaker was trying to feed her, but whatever she tried, didn’t work. 2 minutes passed. Then 5. The whole time my grandma would glance at the food, and then look away. My dad offered to feed her after seeing the stress in the caretaker's face. He doubted that it would work, but when she glanced at the food once more, she leaned in and took a bite.

"I think that she can still remember me deep down," my father said, more to himself than the caretaker. "I think she knows that I'll be leaving for Canada today."

 As he was saying this, my grandma looked over at him and her eyes slowly welled up. Just a bit, but it turned light pink and glassy, like she was holding in tears. She stared at him, as if yearning to be able to say something. But just as it started, she turned back to the T.V. and resumed watching like nothing happened, dry eyes and all. So does she remember, still?

Tuesday, 1 October 2013

Remembering: China • Chengdu • HuangTianBa
Part 2 Chengdu

Chengdu (成都)

The moment we touched Chengdu land, relatives came to our aid; they drove us to my grandparents’ home, helped us find our luggage and carried the heavy duffel bags and backpacks. Relatives or friends would come every day and visit us, some I remembered and some I didn’t recognize. There were so many relatives that it was impossible to keep track. I’ve always known that we had many relatives and family friends, but it ever crossed my mind that it would be on this scale.

Every day or two, someone would invite my family over and treat us to dinner where we taste almost everything on the menu. Our table always winds up with a mountain of decorative plates with barely touched food. One day, my dad’s friend treated us to dinner at a fancy restaurant with multiple glittering chandeliers and a private room the size of my living room. The wall was decorated with heart carvings and our door was wooden with rows of protrusions, representing an ancient looking door. It was furnished with a couch, a coffee table and an aquarium with multiple golden fish. There are more than 4 waiters who attended our every whim, filled our glasses and introduced the platters. Among the dishes was a three-foot long platter piled with fried balls, with a carrot dragon head, almost as tall as the length of the plate, sitting upright on the end of the plate. The head and neck were carved with scales and the eyes give you a feeling that it was alive and smiled with a wise expression. The long mustache hung down, waving in the imaginary wind. The neck was crowned with freshly picked flowers, their fragrance still lingering. None of us eat a lot as we are engrossed in our conversations. So much food is wasted; in fact, most of the food is thrown away. I resent their life style or nature of wasting food, and instead, may invite others for tea while they can chat like what they normally do in restaurants.

The thing that pushes my buttons the most is smoking and it annoys me that people there have a habit of smoking. Any room you walk in, there would be a cigarette odor because there is no specific room or place to smoke. Everyone smokes in restaurants and foggy smog condenses on the ceiling and the stench is eye watering. On the sidewalks, thousands of cigarette butts are flung onto the ground, neglected by the smokers. My uncle smokes a few packs a day and the foul smell surrounds his body for many hours and I try to stay away from him the entire time. Also, more and more people are starting to smoke. My dad, who never smokes in Canada, was wheedled into smoking temporarily.

In Chengdu, there is a street called Jin Li Street (锦里古街). In the Qin Dynasty (秦朝 221 BC - 206 BC), this street was already famous for its cloth and it was one of the busiest streets in the Shu Han Kingdom (蜀汉, 221-263). Sometimes, Jin Li Street is referred as the “First Street of the Shu Kingdom”. In 2008, the street was restored and opened to the public. The street is 350 meters long. The street sells food and other souvenirs like embroidery, calligraphy and paintings. They also sell traditional, ornamental cloths and you can enjoy music and shadow puppetry. My favorite part was the food. There was a huge assortment of food and I wanted to try all of it. I ate something called Donkey Ears, 3 Big Pows and my favorite dish called Liangfen (凉粉) which I had no English translation. It is made out of green been that was grinded into powder, ran through with water and after the mixture dries, it is cut into slippery strips resembling noodles, then added sauces and spices. This dish was already created in the ancient time and was like a Popsicle at that time because of its naturally cold taste. It kept sliding in my mouth, spreading the sharp taste of spices across my tongue and glided down my throat. I kept eating and eating while my stomach was quickly filling up, feeling as if it was going to burst. I looked around and saw much more tempting food, sweet squares decorated with gemlike fruits and pineapple sticky rice. Smells were wafting at me from every corner. I was so disappointed that my stomach was too full to fit another bite.


Aside from the few setbacks, Chengdu has gone a long way from the drab, rundown buildings that I am occasionally told of. Now the buildings are well furnished with brightly lit hallways and the lobbies and are more spacious with glittering chandeliers and waxed tiles. The neighborhoods are nicely decorated with plant life like colorful flowers, healthy grass, many trees and sometimes even bamboo. My aunt and uncle’s apartment has many ponds with fish of any color of the rainbow and small cute turtles that we used to feed. My cousin’s apartment is decorated with bamboo while the buildings in the neighborhood give off an ancient feel.

10 years ago, only few people had cars, but now, seems every family has cars there. Automobiles pop out at every corner and speed away, taking almost impossible turn and every once in a while, a honk would be heard. The streets are constantly jammed and many roads and shortcuts criss cross each other, leaving cars precariously close. The cars squeeze in and out of the tight spaces. The wide roads are filled with little vendors who sell books, freshly roasted chestnuts, fruits and other trinkets. The streets are constantly filled with bustling people, rushing to get to their destinations.



Remembering: China • Chengdu • HuangTianBa     Part 1 China
Remembering: China • Chengdu • HuangTianBa     Part 2 Chengdu
Remembering: China • Chengdu • HuangTianBa     Part 3 HuangTianBa